It has now been a year that we've been back in Colorado. It's been a very full year, and a lot has happened. I have to say, I think most of the changes have been very positive. I thought I'd share this little "first impression" bit I captured when we'd just arrived and I didn't have Internet (or furniture):
"We arrived the evening our little street was having a block party, complete with cones blocking access to our townhouse and a street filled with small people and their bicycles milling about, unheeding a slowly inching vehicle trying desperately to avoid running them over. We had been given a casual invitation to join them, but as I was dead tired, sweaty, and frazzled, and I knew M was, too, so we stayed inside.
I unpacked the car and surveyed the new place. My first impression was that it was smaller than what I had imagined it to be, and so I was mentally re-arranging my furnishings as I walked through our empty townhouse. The lingering smell of fresh paint and the marks of the carpet cleaner supplemented the appearance of the immaculately clean rooms and pristine cream and beige color scheme. I have never lived in such a new building. The style is refined but not fussy, and I know that my few pieces will look well in this space. I love the mantle. The kitchen is much smaller than I am used to, and I see that I will need a baker’s rack or something like that to supplement the counter space. I am amused by the abundant closets and lack of room in other things.
The neighborhood is lovely and quiet and safe. The greenbelt and walking/biking trails nearby are gorgeous. There are so many trees, and I can see the mountains, and the air is fresh and smells good.
I had to go to four stores to find a shower curtain and a fifth to get the rings that I somehow forgot. I am so reliant on Googling everything that trying to navigate without it, or depend on my memory, is pathetic. I finally found the stores I was looking for and bought the supplies I needed, but I felt inefficient and a little vulnerable doing it.
My moving truck has still not arrived, and being without chairs is the most uncomfortable thing of all, followed by a lack of kitchen items. I do not want to buy duplicates of things I already own, and am determined to get along without as long as I can. Fortunately, the complex has a business office with Internet access, a laundry, and the stores are close by. I really want my stuff. "
In the year that we've been here, I spent the money I'd saved, and am now in the process of building it back up. Now that I'm debt free, and our expenses are pretty fixed, that shouldn't take too long. Although I've been looking at Real Estate porn lately, I know I can't realistically consider buying anything until I've saved a big chunk of money for a down payment, and these days I can think of lots of other things I'd like to do with my money.
I've got a good job. I've been there 90 days now, and I just received some great feedback from my boss on a project I'm working on. The guy that was causing me trouble succeeded in pissing off the project manager and the business owner of said project, and so the balance has shifted and he's no longer my problem. That's the best outcome I could have hoped for. I have found a person to be my mentor, and when I asked her if she'd be interested, she gave me an enthusiastic yes. So now I have to figure out how to go about that process. I am hoping I can find a good book to guide me.
My daughter has been going to a school district run summer program and has been active in lots of activities and field trips. It's been a positive experience for her to get to do so many varied things and get out in the community going places. School starts back up in three weeks and she'll begin First Grade. As great as the summer program has been for her, it is in the opposite direction from my work, which means an extra half hour of driving each way that I'll happily give up once school starts and I'm back to dropping her off at her school.
Buster has informed me via one of his incredibly short emails yesterday, that he did not find work in Colorado. This doesn't come as a big surprise, considering how the economic climate here has effected teaching jobs. What kills me is how oblivious he is to how this makes M feel. He continues to speak to her about things without talking to me first. I don't know how he expects her to have an adult's understanding of how things work when he hasn't a clue himself. He somehow found a position in West Palm Beach, Florida, "teaching computers in a high school." Those poor kids. He also told her that he'd love to have us visit them in Cape Cod next summer. Through the haze of my anger, I simply said it is too early to make plans for a year from now. He still has to get himself down to Florida, find a place to live, and get himself through a school year of teaching teenagers. Somehow I think that he will find this a challenge.
For a little while recently I was in a kind of funk, and I finally realized that it was a result of having been so goal-oriented and worried and busy for so long, and then having my plans fall into place. I was reeling with "what now?" and the disorientation of suddenly stepping off a long, crazy ride. I discovered that now I have to focus on living in the moment, enjoy things as they are, and let the "next thing" reveal itself in its own time.
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